~wAd U sEe iS WaD u gEt~

Empty. Jo.

2005-05-21T07:03:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone... Yup im back again... Dunno la juz keep mia-ing... Just damn tired of everything and i really really badly need a break... Well anyways, im starting skool next week @ Sentosa... So if any of u r going to Sentosa on a weekdae, call mi ya... Can meet for lunch... Hahahax... And YES i'll be studying there everyday for one whole year... Those who sigh in envy PLEASE die. Its BORING and not to mention damn hot on afternoons over there lor... DAMN humid and with all the irritating crickets chirping away when ure trying to concentrate on ur lecture... Zzz... Its a new and exciting experience though... And we're the guinea pigs... Hahax. Dunno la. Im not feeling very ok right now... Lots of emotional problems and stuff... Wish there was someone there for me to lend me a shoulder to cry on and comfort me and stuff but nah, no ones there... Its alright, just take it as a you-should-be-stronger lesson ba... Sigh. Dun wanna say much but in short, a friendship is completely over. You should know who you are. Dun wanna say anything about it, just that its too late for wadever u're trying to do and theres nothing in me anymore that says i care about u. Bye. K... So much for that... Damn im still in that rut in my life i guess... Just a really really low point where nothing seems to be going well... Family also liddat, skool also liddat, friends also liddat, love life needless to say la... Just feeling damn damn empty and jealous of other people who have everything going for them... Envious. Oh well... C'est la vie... >.< I dunno la... Just wish that i had the discipline and motivation to get my life on the right track again but... where r u...?

Back~! Jo.

2005-04-23T04:02:00.000-07:00

Hahax... Firstly and most importantly i wanna apologise to everyone who came to my blog the past month and saw absolutely NO posts for the past 2 weeks... :p That was due to a MAJOR (when i say major i mean REALLY REALLY major like 12-15 hours a day) non-stop addiction to one stupid game called WarCraft 3... HAHAx. *Pauses to take a breath as well as to let Darryl Alvin and Kelvin roll their eyes and mutter "who plays WarCraft" * Heehee... Well i guess im just damn addicted to it... Can play it day in and night out without even getting SICK of it... That too explains why i havent been calling u guys (if i even called u at the first place normally la)... And im SOWWIE... *bleah* Okie? Forgiven? Knew it... Thanks :D And its not so much of the game that im addicted to ba... Its more like this guy i met a few weeks back in the game... *laffs shyly* Well... erm... Lets just say hes really sweet and makes me wanna go on the game just to pei him play ba... Lolx... Thats pretty much wad i've been doing the past 2 weeks...

Besides that, i just had supplementary papers for 2 modules -Business Statistics and Travel & Tour Operations... FIRSTLY - its no surprise i failed Biz Stats lor... i mean, i didnt study (yeah kinda gave up on it) and secondly, everyone knows, i suck at math BIG TIME... Zzz... and i had an mc for the TTOP exam so i just took it again as the supplementary paper lor... Yupx... Hopefully i pass ba... Pray for mi kae people? Dun wanna take Biz Stats again for another bloody half a year >.< ...

Hmm... Besides all these... Im kinda worried for another friend... Lets just call him A... Well... A broke up with his bf not too long ago (few months back)...? And the thing is, im close to A... I know how he is as a person... He doesnt let go of relationships easily... Well in other words... He clings on to the relationship although its already obviously kaput. Get it...? Okie... Now the thing is, i dont think he has gotten over that guy yet (obviously he still loves him alot)... But the thing that scares me most (yeah im freaking out) is that... I think he has created a imaginary person to help him get over it... Let me explain if ure looking like this ----> O.o? now...

All this while that i've known him (about nearly 2 years liao), he has never never mentioned such a person... And suddenly this fictatious character appears in his life, claiming to be back from overseas... And according to A, this guy is Mr Perfect... Hes rich, handsome, got the bod to boot, etc... And hes totally in love with A, and has been waiting for A for 4 whole years... I would really like to believe A, but knowing him so well... if he had such a guy (or any guy for that matter), he would definitely bring the person out to hang out with us (my that group of friends la) and u noe, like ask us how we think of that person, etc... But the thing is, hes been so very secretive about this guy~! That is SO not him lor...

Kae second thing... Sometimes he calls us to say that he cant meet us coz hes meeting that guy, for dinner or to go to his place, etc... BUT then again, knowing him so well, we could tell that he was lying to us... Its called the 6th SENSE... And its always full of loopholes... I really wanna confront him about it and tell him to be honest with us but at the same time... I dont know how to go about doing it becoz i noe if its a real person, all is good... But if its not a real person and hes using it to get over the past relationship... Then...

Third thing... well... Not to mean anything but just being factual and realistic - If this guy is really that perfect and all... And im sure he knows it himself that hes gorgeous... Would he wait 4 years for a person...? Being so perfect, am kinda sure he has many suitors as well... Would he really wait for years for one person and not go for some others...? There are many fishes in the sea, not just one. I dunno la...

Then again would it be wise to actually expose him and risk hurting him in the process...? Or should i just let him continue like that but risk him being even more hurt when reality hits him in the face...?

Im putting all this here becoz i really dunno how to tell u in the face... Although i can be very straightforward to people if i want to (and u know that), i cant and dont want to do that to u becoz im really honestly very worried about u if i did that... So if u're reading this... (which i hope u do)... Just be honest with me ok...? Like i said before... If u cant be honest with me or A or K u have no one else u can be honest with. Especially me. You should know who has been there for you all this while, being there for you when you were terribly upset over I and no one else was there... And who has been sticking with you all this while - Me. So just be honest with me about it ok...? I just want a definite answer. Im risking the friendship I have with u now to confront u about this... You can either be damn pissed with me about posting this here and asking u this way, or u can just come and talk to me - I'll be here waiting... as always. Okae?

*SIGH* Finally got one major load off my chest... Feel so much betta now... Well isnt that what blogs are for...? *Smiles wryly* Alright im gonna go sleep now... To Kelvin, Alvin and Darryl - KIP IN TOUCH ARH~! Lolx... Nite nitez~ *Signing off*

Thinking. Jo.

2005-04-07T02:45:00.000-07:00

Haha... Once again sorry to all those who were hoping for new posts... Figured out that i needed some time and space to think about my life so just didnt wanna post anything... Anyways spent the last few days (with an average of 9-10 hours STRAIGHT daily) playing Warcraft 3 Bnet... Lolx... (yeah Darryl i noe wad u wanna sae - GET A LIFE~) ... Bought it from Sim Lim coz it was SOLD OUT everywhere else... Imagine that -_-; ... Just wanted to get something to occupy my time and attention so that i wont think so much... About that stupid crush and all that... And its working fine :D Im really occupied LOL *pauses to let Darryl roll his eyes* Something just happened to me again today... Which is generating LOADS of fodder for thought... Damn. I hate thinking. But cant help doing that. Met someone online again... Someone who totally shattered my heart before... And now... A part of me is longing... BUT i know i cant... Its crazy... How can u go back to someone who did that to you before...? What if he is just toying around with my feelings again...? He just said this to me before he left - "If you have anything kept inside just say it out. Nothing is impossible in this world." I wonder what he meant. Its obvious that he knows something and i know something but at the same time i dont want that something because im really afraid already... Sigh. Dunno la. Play with fire, you get burnt.

Jo. Jon. Clubbing.

2005-03-26T09:05:00.000-08:00

Firstly, just wanna apologise for not posting for some time... Been having exams the past week and its been hell. Dont think i have to elaborate on that ba... Just got back from clubbing about 7 this morning and feeling very tired now but got alot on my mind... Besides i just lost my mp3 player - left it on the cab this morning... -_-; Just hope that whoever found it will be honest enough to pass it to the driver. Sigh. Just my luck. Came out late yesterday... Went to meet Black (haha i wont say who - think would rather keep it unknown) in the evening... Watched Miss Congeniality 2 - it was SO funny~! The first one was my favourite movie, and thus of coz i wont miss the sequel for ANYTHING... It was good... Those who havent seen it, please do go and watch it... Hahax.

Met Roy and the others at maxwell after that to settle some problems... Bryan - if you are reading my blog, all i have to say is no hard feelings anymore. Yes i dont deny i was very very fucking pissed. And i was prepared to do alot more than just slap you. But at the same time i know your position and after all, you are new. Just let this be a lesson learnt for you - dont go around acting like you are something when you are actually new to this circle. Roy already gave Abang face and you, a chance by not doing anything to you... And i didnt slap u hard either. Well, let bygones be bygones. Im fine now... All that anger was in that single slap. If u wanna talk to me, just feel free to do so. I'm not someone who bears grudges over a long period of time. :) K back to my blog... Went clubbing with the rest of them after that... Stupid DJ didnt play Absolutely Everybody and Stranger In My House today -_-... It was so damn potong steam lor.

Have alot alot on my mind now... Guess i can only use one word to describe how im feeling now - lost. Why does life joke with us so...? You just treat the people who like you as friends, and those that you kinda like, they just treat you as friends... Am believing more and more in karma... Heh. Now its my turn to be on the side that does the liking... Dont know how he feels though. Its making me feel all weird and stuffed up with mixed emotions... I keep thinking about Black but the thing is, im not supposed to even be caring lor. We are just friends... for now. What is this im feeling? Is it just because i've been single for too long...? Or is it really something there...? Im confused. What is wrong with me... Used to be so cold and cool about such things, letting the other person do the worrying instead... See, its karma. Haha. I dont wanna talk much about it because like Black said, see how things go... And i agree... totally.

Another thing... Why is it so hard to be who you really are inside...? Is this world really so narrow minded...? And so filled with people who are so conscious about maintaining an "image" in front of others? How can they be happy like that...? Food for thought... Really gotta go sleep now... Tired. Not just physically. :: Emotionally :: Mentally :: Spiritually :: Drained ::

Jer. Jo.

2005-03-23T06:05:00.000-08:00

Sorry all... Having exams now so didnt post for the last few days... To my loyal fans - im sorry... Hahax~ Am online now and just had some roleplay with Jer... Its so funny... But in a sense its really describing how im feeling right now... (The "Jo" in the conversation is a part of me... "Jer" is Jer (like DUH)... and "Squall" and "Ifrit" are all parts of him... "Raine" is another part of me... so is "Shiva"... "Edea"...) For those who played Final Fantasy VIII before, im sure this aint foreign to you... :) well, here goes...

*Quistis mouths to Jer* : shes (referring to Raine) just tired of her life... its too routine and mundane...

*Jer whispers to Quistis*: she needs L-O-V-E... how thick can you be?
*adds the word 'instructor'*

*Raine runs to Shiva and hides with her in her ice cold sphere*

*Quistis whispers back to Jer* : she does...? but... im not lesbian... i only have Squall in my heart...

Squall: I heard that... I'm with Jer now. and Seif. so...

Jer: *gasp* Quisty! jooo cannot steal Squallly from ME!

*Quistis runs away, eyes brimming with tears*

Jer: he's MINE! (Selfish lil` Jer)

*Meanwhile... Raine snuggles in comfortably with Shiva in her frozen tomb, her heart slowly freezing... till... its... frozen.*

Jer: been there. done that.

Ifrit (Jer again) : fwahahahaha! Shiva... so we meet again.

Raine : its... so... comfortable...

*Shiva blinks at Ifrit, her cold blue eyes looking straight at the beast... speaking in a soft murmur* : Yes... Havent seen you in a while ever since i helped Squall and Quistis defeat you at the Fire Cavern...

Ifrit bellows: fwahahaha! that was a cheap trick because Squall and Quistis didn't have the ability to beat me without YOUR help. besides, it was a 'test'... I had to go easy on them!

*Shiva gives an empty laugh that echoes with chill*: Ha. Ha. seems to me like your ego hasnt been damaged at all... A cheap trick...? it seemed like you were pretty furious when i appeared to aid them...

Squall, Seifer and Jer: tch. they're ignoring us... imprudent Guardian Forces. let's go... *walks away*

*Raine stirs a little in the glacier, turned around and went back into her slumber*

*Quistis looks fondly at Squall... and looks like shes thinking about something*

*Squall runnnnns away as fast as he can*

*Sephiroth swoops down from the sky. black feathers everywhere. he catches Squall in his grasp and flies off*

Jer: NoooOOooo... Squally poo!!

*Meanwhile, Edea magically removes Raine's heart from her body, and encompasses it in a small frozen orb whispering : "There it will remain till a flame strong enough to melt the orb comes along..."*

*Edea draws up magical energy, forming it into a glacial spike, which she then hurls at Sephiroth, stabbing it straight through him*

Jer: Yay~~! *runs to catch Squall in his arms lovingly*

(Just then, Jo comes running up in a hurry) Jo: *looks around frantically* wheres Raine???

Jer: sleeping?

Jo: She is...? Where?

*Jer, pointing at the glacier which holds the body of Raine* : there... frozen in time. the perfect statue of pristine coolness...

*Jo starts wondering how long would she remain frozen like that*

Jer: hmmm... until her knight in shining armour comes along to place a kiss to break the spell of ice.

*Jo turns to Edea*: and when would that be...? you of all people should be able to tell right...?

Edea: I do not foresee the future, little one... the future is for you to grasp...

*Jo, running to the glacier that Raine is kept in and touching it, whispers* : Im sorry Raine... I tried my best... But its too hard for me to bear myself... Its such a burden... I cant do it alone... Come out soon... k...? I'll be waiting... for you... so... If you come here... You'll find me. I promise.

Darryl. Willie. Levis. Jo.

2005-03-18T23:59:00.000-08:00

Spent the whole of today at home... Played Gunbound with my lil' sis... Man that girl is GOOD... Lost to her duno how many times le... Lolx. So malu sia... :p Went to meet Darryl after that to buy Alvin's present in town... Couldnt find anything NICE... We went to Perlini's but they didnt have something expensive enuff... (even if it costed enuff, the design was one word - UGLY) Headed to Tiffany & Co after that... They had some nice pieces, but some were too ex and others were... well... too SMALL... Hahax~! We were like, "this CANNOT fit Alvin's wrist..." -Hugz Alv if ure reading this- :p Went to Gucci and LV after that, but nothing suitable either... Sad leh.

After that went to watch a movie @ PS with a friend - that Son of the Mask show... For those that are thinking of watching it - its only ok nia. Not impressed. Quite nonsensical... Decided to go to the arcade after that to see who was there... bumped into Qf and Willie~! So happy lol... then of coz we spent quite alot of time (and money) playing there la... Heh. After that Qf said wanted to go Selegie eat beancurd so we went there... only to find that it was close liao. That was about 1am ba. So he suggested we go near my place there the roti prata house - it was GOOD~! We ordered ALOT... and the beancurd shop next to the prata house was still open so we had that too :p

In total the 3 lil pigs ordered 3 beancurds, two cheese pratas, one bomb prata (it was some weird combination of butter, honey and cheese), one paper prata with honey (this one reminded me of the skin of the apple strudel - it was thin, crispy and sweet), and one PLAIN prata (Willie ordered that lolx! Like WHO EATS PLAIN PRATAS~?) After we finished everything, the 3 lil pigs went home feeling full, bloated, satisfied... and... last but not least... FAT~! (LOL @ Willieee)

Jer. Jo.

2005-03-17T23:46:00.000-08:00

This is another Thank-U post to Jer... Hahax. Credit goes to him for the music loaded in my blog :p Thanks jer... -Hugz-

Ps. Jo.

2005-03-17T23:45:00.000-08:00

Woke up early today and went to tan... Bought some stupid tanning oil which had SPF 8 and it appeared to be too protective up to the point where i couldnt even "brown" at all... Waste money leh~! Should have listened to Alvin and got the one with no SPF at all... Use awhile sure become toast le~ Hahax... Baked in the evening sun for like, 2 hours but like no effect le... >.< Went to meet Willie, Alvin, Kelvin and Sean in town after that... Played arcade and wanted to go eat PastaMania after that (had craving for their stupid crayfish pasta) but it was CLOSED just when we got there... I was like, WTF... Disappointing leh. But not as disappointing as some other thing that happened. Haiz... Nevermind la. Friday's mood just got spoilt... But cant blame anyone also la. No promises were made anyways. K la. Enuff of my PMS-ing. Gonna go make a drink now den watch some vcds...

2005-03-17T12:18:00.000-08:00

Pictures from Christina's Mtv... Enjoy~

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Skool. Ling. Jo.

2005-03-16T22:50:00.000-08:00

Spent the whole day in skool rushing out some art pieces... Then went to meet my family to watch that Lemony Snickets -Series of Unfortunate Events show @ Suntec... It was so damn short lor~! Like, one and a half hours~? Went to Toa Payoh to meet Sharon after that... Went to a Lan-shop to play Warcraft 3 Frozen Throne~! And that stupid game we played took HOURS to complete lor... We went in at 10+ and came out at 5+AM... Siao leh~! Lolx... Play until my eyes one big one small (O.o) K... Gonna go sleep le... Buay tahan liao...

Cut hair. Jo.

2005-03-15T23:33:00.000-08:00

Went to Darryl's place yesterday to change my hair colour... Actually didnt plan to do it yesterday but Alvin was free so just went there last min... Was supposed to meet Kelv at PS but he didnt wake up till at nite~ *Pig leh YOU*

Good thing Alvin came down at the last min to keep me company... Then play awhile and went over to Dar's place... Now my hair is like, reddish brown... Lolx. Then Alv went home coz he had to werk todae... I stayed over @ Dar's place and played Frozen Throne Bnet the whole night straight till 9.30 this morning... Hahahax... Eyes nearly popped out~! Was so tired i took a cab home and slept till 6+pm juz now...

Its irritating leh~! The weather this few days is atrocious... Not to mention its making me have frequent mood swings... On top of the perpetual 24-7 PMS... Sigh. Bought roses 2 days back to put in my room (sad right, still must buy myself lol) and now they look half dead... Coz i wasnt home yesterday no one to water them (-.-) Nothing goes well when ure in a bad mood. Oh well... Just feeling lost now. Like i dont know what to do anymore. K, enuff of wallowing in self-pity... Too much "self-indulgence" isnt good :p

Levis Birthdae. Jo.

2005-03-13T07:47:00.000-08:00

Its so early in the morning and i just finished bathing, brushing teeth... etc... Came back from maxsmell not long ago... Hehex~ Just celebrated Qing Fu's (Levis) birthdae @ Ynot last night... Glad to see that everyone enjoyed themselves and all... And happy that he loved the present that we gave him... Hahax~ Although Kelv and I spent dinner time sitting outside Taka to wrap it and write the card lor~!!! That was the most tak-glam thing i ever did leh~! God... And stupid Kelv had to bluff Levis and put the blame on me coz we were late in meeting them le... Say wad i wanted to shop and buy wad Gucci and Prada... Its like, PLEASE DIE lor~!! Lolx... Anyways its okie le :p Damn having a headache now from all the prancing around i did with Alvin last night... Didnt really have the mood to club though. Kinda feeling down lately... Guess its just that thingy that im allowing to get to me ba. Trying really hard to be strong on my own le. Im trying... Hope it will get betta soon... K i really gotta go sleep liao or im gonna fall asleep on my keyboard... Nitez~

Jo. Vickie.

2005-03-09T01:23:00.000-08:00

This post is dedicated to Vickie... In remembrance... Mwahahax. No la, just wanna thank Vickie for helping me to shift the windows and for helping to add a chatterbox (Btw pple, the box is in the window on the right, just scroll all the way down)... Thanks Vic and dun forget my music :D -huggies-

Art. Jo.

2005-03-09T01:17:00.000-08:00

Spent the last 2 days at home busy doing my stupid art project and drawing till the cows came home... Nothing much to talk about besides... Hahax. Feeling do empty now, with nothing and no one in my life. Its just... stagnant. I need a CHANGE badly. Badly badly badly... Well just started talking to Jeremy last night or rather this morning at like, 5am? (Kelv and Sean - SHUT UP~!) lolx... And oh, yeah, spent yesterday owning Sean's ass in GunBound... Mwahahax (Sean, train harder le den come find me la~) ANYWAYZ... Gonna go sleep now... 1am le... Hope that things will get better soon. *Hugz all~*

Thinking. Jo.

2005-03-06T18:50:00.000-08:00

Hahax... Just came back not too long ago from watching a movie with the guyz... Met Kelvin, Darryl, Levis, Roy, Alvin, Gary, Eugene, Yoyo and alot others la... Went to PS and was stuck at the arcade (as usual wads new heh) till very late... Then the rest left and only me, Kelvin, Sean, Darryl, Lionel, Levis, Willie and Eugene went to watch Hitch at 2am... It was a really nice show though... Very nice but a little unbelievable la... Wonder if that will ever happen to me anot. Heh. Didnt post the past few days becoz was busy with skool project deadlines and tests... So sorry to my loyal blog-readers who were complaining again that "ur blog is dated back on 28 Feb leh~! Hahax... Alot of things going through my mind, and that movie made me think even more about how possible it is to find love in a world like this. Besides that, skool also giving me a hard time, and there are other problems constantly running through my mind... Too many to say it all out. Just feeling so lost and lonely now. Hope that my life will get better soon. Dont know how much more of this i can take... Think i need a major change in my life - i cant go on like that forever... Am happy the way i am but who else likes it? Its true that you cant please everybody... Guess im just getting too loud and everything for my own good... Sigh. Im just so tired with the routines in my life and its getting way too boring for comfort... I need changes~! Will try to work on it soon... I hope... K gonna sleep now... Thats all for now... Nitez~

2005-03-06T04:39:00.000-08:00

Welcome to the Zoooo~

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Some cute brown lil` creatures... But i forgot what they are called... Keke... Think they are prarie dogs or something like that...

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Sho cute~! Silly lil` goat... *mehhhh*

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White snake... *Bai Jie~* lolx

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White tiger sleeping... Aint it gorgeous~

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Those gross things... *Yuck~*

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Arent the penguins CUTE~?

Hurt. Jo.

2005-02-28T00:40:00.000-08:00

Sorry for not posting for nearly a month... Just really busy with school projects and stuff and really have no time or energy to post... Until a few people started asking me to update my blog... Lolx. Well... Been going through alot the past month... Mainly alot of stress from skool and projects, tests, etc... AND once again... I got hurt. Hahax. Whats new...? Dont know why im tearing now as im typing this but ill be fine... I hope. Just wish that i never even got involved at all. His heart belongs to someone else, not me. And didnt tell me right from the start... Sigh. Just my luck ba. Why does this always happen to me...? I just hate it... Losing faith in all this. Really cant carry on like that anymore... I need a change in my life. Where are you...?

Jo. Zoo.

2005-02-26T06:11:00.000-08:00

Although im posting this on like, March 6th, im gonna put it under February 26 coz that was the dae we went to the Zoooo~ Lolx... Well... Was DAMN tired that day because i went for some skool city tour thingy in the morning before rushing off to meet the guyz at choa chu kang... Met many many pple~! Darryl, Kelvin, Alvin, Roy, Eugene, Levis, Sean, Willie, Gerald and his bf, Shermie and Jennifer... Surprised that Eugene actually came le... (Not scared ur make-up melt arh? Hahahahax) :p Had a really REALLY fun time at the zoo sia... It was SO funny going with the whole bunch of them :p (Btw i uploaded some pics taken at the zoo into my bloggie so enjoy them hehe - uploaded them under the March 6th post becoz somehow i cant load them back into another date) We saw many things... fishes la, butterflies, monkeys, orang utans, zebras, piggies, goats, sheeps, tigers, alligators, snakes... etc... and worst things of all, COCKROACHES >.< they were giving birth when we happen to go by and Qf actually went to record it down le~!!! I was like "Eeeeeee..."... Just felt so itchy and squirmish si... Hahax. We went off in the evening and i was already brain dead... In the end we still went clubbing that night le... Was sooo tired i actually fell asleep in the club amidst the loud music and heavy throbbing bass~! Can u believe it~? I was THAT tired leh... Hahax... After clubbing went back to sleep le... So that was pretty much wad i did that dae ba...

Skool. Jo.

2005-01-31T23:19:00.000-08:00

Started school again today after the one week break... Sian. First lesson was Econs... Was like, nearly falling asleep. Didnt even know what she was talking about either... Hehe. Everyone was like, O_o ur hair is GREEN... Lolx. Sigh. One day down, four more to go before da weekends >.<

Sunday. Boring. Jo.

2005-01-30T19:30:00.000-08:00

Just had a quiet day... Preparing for school tmr... Nothing much to talk abt today. Heh.

Clubbing. Again. Jo.

2005-01-29T23:59:00.000-08:00

Hehe... Once again i woke up late and went to orchard before clubbing. Man i need a change in lifestyle. If only he would come by soon :) Went to meet Kelv, Darryl, Lionel, Qf and Willie at orchard for steamboat~! It was goood... We stuffed ourselves to make the money worth it... Hahax. Was so bloated after that. Went to PS after that and Alvin & Gary joined us... Played KOF (as usual) and went down to club after that... Yoyo got in today~! Lolx... Wasnt happy coz they played Book is on the table/Smoke Machine and Dark Beat so damn early and we MISSED it~! Argh. Went to maxwell after that and was crapping with Yoyo... That salah bitch was making us laugh throughout the whole night talking through her "sperm phone"~ Hahahax... :p

Clubbing. Jo.

2005-01-28T23:59:00.000-08:00

First day i went out with my new hairstyle lolx... Everyone kept staring at me where ever i went... So guai lan :x Was attracting more attention than i expected it would... Went to PS as usual then down clubbing after that. The music was... Heh. Was crapping with Yoyo and Kelv @ Maxwell after that and Kelv came up with a new name for himself - Puiami Salahsaki~!!! LOLX~! Named after Ayumi... Hahax :p Damn funny le... Crazy bitch.

Tired. Jo.

2005-01-27T20:30:00.000-08:00

Came home this morning after spending the night at Darryl's place with the rest of the sluts... Heh. Was so pooped i fell asleep the moment my lil' green head touched the pillow (YEAH i know my head aint lil... just make mi happy la k? lolx) Just woke up and having dinner now... Cant wait for tmr to come - its FRIDAE~! Lolx... Clubbing againz *Yay~*

Dye hair. Darryl. Christina. Kelly. Jo. Cole.

2005-01-26T23:59:00.000-08:00

Met Kelv in the evening to continue our hunt for the stupid blondor before going to Darryl's house... Ran all the way to Selegie and across town to every Watsons and Guardian but all SOLD OUT. Irritating. Apparently some crazy bitch bought 30 PACKETS... And none left for me. *sObz* In the end no choice, went to Heeren to get another type of bleach... Then proceeded to Darryl's house to cut and dye hair~!! *Yayyy~ Ricole and Christina were there too... His family members were nice... Mom was REALLY nice... Enjoyed myself there hanging out with the galz... Heh. Stupid Kelv itchy hand went to try and touch Feebee and got BITTEN. Good thing it was only a minor cut... or else.... Heh. 11 stitches. :x Christina was the busiest the whole night long, doing so many pples' hair... Thanks gal i really love my hair... its like, GREEN~! Lolx. They played mahjong whilst waiting for the bleach to set in... Was sooo sleepy. Yawn. Kelv was so tired he started going nuts... Paraded around with a sleeve down and a sling bag doing a CHRISTIAN DIOR walk... Hahahahax~! Man it was so damn funny i WISH i videotaped it down... Hee. Okie buay tahan le... gonna sleep.

Kelvin. Ps. Jo.

2005-01-25T23:45:00.000-08:00

As usual slept till afternoon today... Met up with Kelv and Darryl and Irritant (not my choice) in the evening... Ran around the whole orchard to buy dye needed the next day... Whew. Just couldnt find that stupid blondor powder ANYWHERE. Geez. Couldnt go to the arcade today coz by the time we finished shopping it was past ten... Went to eat then decided to come home early... Thats about it. And i bought GREEN dye~! Cant wait to dye tmr... Keke

Movies. Juzzy. Jo.

2005-01-24T23:00:00.001-08:00

Had a boring and terribly hot afternoon... Didnt do much, just some surfing online and stuff... Went to get ready at 6pm to meet Juzzy for a movie. Was late so took a cab... Hee. Didnt know it was a Fridae.com event and all were ajs~! All the "kakak-rations..." Lolx. The movie was an aj show in spanish... Was kinda cool though. Had to smuggle Mac into the theatre coz i didnt eat before that... Accidently spilt lemon tea in my bag and everything was WET~ Argh. Went to PS after that to meet Yoyo and his bf and played some KOF... Hehe. Then someone msged and asked me to go home :x Wonder why he worries so much :p Anyways am home now but havent bathed... Gotta go shower now. Laters~

Bored. Hot. Jo.

2005-01-23T22:45:00.000-08:00

Spent half the day sleeping as usual... Then smsed with him till evening when he called... Hee. Thought he sounded rather cute and VERY nervous. Lolx. Sounded like a little boi whose voice hasnt cracked... Hehe... Was a little nervous but nowhere near him... He was like, "Erm... Erm..." Hahahax... Spent the night watching vcds and lazing in bed. Nothing much. *Smiles*

Clubbing. Jo.

2005-01-22T23:59:00.000-08:00

Had my last exam paper this morning... Law was kinda easy. Think can pass ba. Met the DJ of Ynot at the exam and he told me he would be spinning that night. That made my day... Hehe. Went home after the paper and chatted online till evening... Thats when i met him online. Knew him for the first time only but it just felt so right. Was a sweet guy and knew how to play with words... Heh. Finally. Some hope. But then again, didnt want to hope for anything anymore. Learnt my lesson. Went to change and left the house. Went to town to play arcade with Kelv and Yoyo... Was angry with some people because they spoilt Kelv's mood to club. Good thing Christina came down and we all felt better... :) And that irritating thing came along. Felt my temper rising. As usual he came with a black face and started his incessant whining. Idiot. When i pulled Kelv to Mac to eat, he came over and suddenly said "I no mood to go out liao. Going home." Thats why i disliked him so much~! He practically spoilt Kelv's mood the whole night. And still got the cheek to ask why im so cold towards him? Pah. Please die. Suddenly msged Kelv again and said he was fine and that he was now with another friend. Like, what the hell. You know who you are. If you're reading this, i just wanna tell u straight in the face. If u just wanna jump groups here and there according to who can help you and give you advantages and freebies, just fuck off. You aint welcome in the group. And quit whining. The world will be a better place. Im not biased or whatever. I just cant stand kids. Especially childish ones. Enough of that. Enjoyed myself at Ynot with them again as usual... Heh. Thanks guys. Love ya all.

Wedding. Wendy. Jo.

2005-01-21T23:30:00.000-08:00

Spent most of the day sleeping. Lolx. Piggie me. Sorry Wen i really couldnt wake up in time for ur church wedding... Sorry. Woke up and went online for awhile. Didnt have much to do online either. Got ready in the evening for Wendy's wedding dinner... Was really glad that i was able to see her again - havent seen her for ages... She was gorgeous that night. Enjoyed myself at the dinner... The food was really good :x Had a good time and took pics with the bride... Heh. Finally. A happy day.

Kelvin. Clubbing. Jo.

2005-01-20T23:59:00.000-08:00

Kinda cheering up today... Met up with Kelv, Qingfu and others... Went to my favouritest place to play some kof and tried not to think too much. Out to have a good time anyways. Went clubbing after that. 6th sense was tingling throughout and i thought something bad was gonna happen... But nothing came. Thanks to Yoyo i felt better and continued clubbing. Someone pissed me off throughout the whole day though. Wish he didnt even hang out with us at all. Born irritant. Nearly slapped him when clubbing. Anyways. Felt better after a nap. Good.

Empty. Jo.

2005-01-19T22:10:00.000-08:00

Got nothing much to talk about today... Just feeling tired. Of. Everything. Will keep it short. The medication is making me feel drowsy... Painkillers numbing my mouth... If only it could numb my heart.

Bored. Numb. Jo.

2005-01-18T23:55:00.000-08:00

Tired. Cold. Not gonna enter much today... Just wanna lie down and sleep. Never wake up again. Everyone told me that he isnt worthy of my love. But thats love isn't it? Unconditional and giving without hoping for anything in return. Was feeling drowsy the whole day... Think its because of the medication... Darn painkillers. K gotta go and mug now - got a test tmr. Hope i wont be too affected then. Lost.

Pain. Hurt. Shattered. Jo.

2005-01-17T23:43:00.000-08:00

I promised myself never to shed a single tear again for another guy and i guess i just broke my promise. But i never expected him to find someone so fast... Its really fate. Tears dropping. As im typing... Meant to give him a surprise after scrimping and saving for so long... But the surprise was on me instead. Was saving for a.... Ticket. Intended to fly over and give him a surprise during my school holidays this April. Boo. Guess who got played out in the end. Stabbed. Heart is aching beyond description now. Feels like its being mutilated and shattered into a million pieces. Each piece crying out and bleeding ever so profusely. Thats my feelings now. Want to cry out loud but am afraid my mom will ask why. She already questioned me when she saw tears dripping slowly down my face. I really feel so hurt. Cant describe with words. Knew him for so long already... and this had to happen just before i wanted to do something about it. Grief. Tortured. Why do i feel this way? For someone whom i've never met before? You know who you are. If you are reading this, close the window immediately. Dont want you to see anymore of this. If you're the one who got his heart, congratulations, you won. Nothing more i can say. Except - i've always loved you since that time. Never doubted it. So why did u doubt me. Sacrifices. Wasted. Down the drain. Feeling lost now... so lost... I really dont know what to do with the stuff. Throw it? Burn it? Can you tell me what to do...? Finally - Vin, I love you.

2005-01-16T20:26:00.000-08:00

ARGH... Damn. Bored. Listening to Ayu's songs now and just blanking out... Got exams tmr and i havent even studied a single chapter. *Sigh.~ Somebody save mi. Know i need ta study but i just aint in the mood to do so... Got alot on my mind. Confused. Blank. Keep thinking abt him....